Post by caspian sterling on Jan 16, 2015 1:17:42 GMT -5
|caspian marcelius sterling||CASPIAN|
love letters written like obituaries
Maybe just a tad bit on the empathetic side of things, Caspian is a very compassionate person. He's not exactly the best person to come and cry on his shoulder about your problems, actually that might make things ten times more awkward, but he certainly won't leave you hanging. Actions have always spoken louder than words in Caspian's opinion. He'll do small things for you to make things easier or send you gifts, nothing large, but something that would make you happy.
Caspian has always been forgiving and it is fault that has been with him since he was a chid. Caspian is quick to forgive, perhaps not as quick to forget, but if you have wronged him in some way, he will give you a second change. And a third, a fourth, a fifth, and as many times after. It's what people take advantage of him. In truth, Caspian faults himself more than he would another person. However, if you were to hurt his friends, then that's a different matter altogether.
Even with everything he has been through, Caspian still remains gentle as he was a child. He is extremely patient with students and tries to be as gentle as possible when it comes to teaching and even reprimanding troublemakers. His gentleness can often be taken as pacifism, but really, if you strike him first then by all means he has the right to retaliate.That doesn't happen often sadly. Caspian is more of the person to cower than to actually hit someone back, even if it's in play between friends.
A regular scholar, Vincent always has his nose buried in a book. What better way than to satisfy one's curiosity? He might not be a walking dictionary, but he certainly has information in regards to a vast array of subjects. English, math, the sciences, music, and art even. Most of this knowledge is stored and locked away in the far back of his mind. After all, he is an English Literature teacher. However, if you ask, he can help you with chemistry problems and math homework.
Well he certainly has to like it if he's going to spend the rest of his life teaching the subject. Caspian loves reading and especially likes reading classical literature. So from Shakespeare's Macbeth and Hamlet to J.R.R Tolkien's Lord of the Rings series, he'll read them all. He will happily engage in talks of literature and possible arguments. Don't get him started on character development because he can and possibly will turn into some weird fangirl, which some may find disturbing or endearing.
He practically lives off of this stuff. If he doesn't feel like eating, the most he does it drink fifty gallons of tea. Caspian doesn't really stick to one specific blend of tea and prefers to try a variety in order to broaden his taste. He's also got a variety of cups and mugs from previous students of his. His cabinet is also well stocked with a good number of tea tins just for this.
What a nerd, but it helps when he needs to focus on grading three stacks of essays that are more or less five to eight pages each. Metal and rock will not do well with his ears or concentration. If anything, it might make him grumpy and no one wants a grumpy teacher grading their work. Caspian plays both the violin and piano, so there's also that to take into account.
Named after the great and magical wizard, Caspian's therapy dog is Merlin. Merlin is not the conventional labrador retriever, but actually a chocolate tri border collie with a heart and personality that's as sweet as his appearance. As Caspian would like to say, Merlin does work magic when he is having one of his bad days.
There's nothing better than to wake up late on the last day of the weekend and have nothing pressing to do. No grading, no work, no worries. It's the good life at this point and Caspian will be very happy to spend it in bed reading a book with a cup of tea at his nightstand.
Caspian runs away from his problems. He never does like to address them, whether it is a person or a situation at hand. He would rather run away or pretend that it doesn't exist. While he is painfully aware of this, he finds it a lot safer and easier to just avoid them. Of course, this is what leads to a huge number of problems that will come and bite him later. He's also too scared
His case of high self consciousness doesn't help that he is very insecure. Caspian worries that everyone is judging and watching his every move. It's a miracle how he manages to get through a class without stuttering over everything he says, but then again, he is rather confident in his abilities to teach something he likes. He's also very insecure about his physical appearance as well, particularly the numerous scars that he has. Hence why he spends most of his time indoors where he can be comfortable in long sleeved clothing.
He doesn't mean to rain on your parade, but he'll do it anyway. Either he'll voice every possible thing that will go wrong of he'll simply keep them to himself, but his pessimism is what keeps him from doing a lot of things. It doesn't even have to be something that involves taking risks. Even participating in something as little as going out to a party with his fellow colleagues can pull up ten possible what if scenarios that do not end with his dignity intact.
A little - okay fine, make it very set in his ways. It's hard to get Caspian to change his habits and behavior. Even though he might have an open mind, understand the reasoning as to why certain things aren't good for him, it doesn't necessarily mean he'll do it or change. Caspian is comfortable with the way he is, after all, humans tend to like things that they are familiar with. It'll take a lot of work and effort for him to change and that isn't something Caspian has a lot of.
Caspian is easily startled. If it is a sudden loud noise, there is a good chance he might drop or freeze in response to whatever it is. Overall though, he hates loud anythings. While he might not shut a student down for being too excited, he'd ask them to tone it down.
After losing his fighter in a spell battle, there's a good reason why Caspian hates them. He'll avoid one as much as he can and it's the largest part of the community that he would rather forget about. However, if he were to get in one, Caspian has a rather large pain tolerance, but the mental aspect of it usually beats him down from participating in one. He might be physically okay, but the fear of pain keeps him away.
It's not so much an OCD thing, but Caspian does prefer to keep things neat and orderly. It's a long time habit and it has grown to the point where if he sees a mess, he'll want to clean it. It might be a past influence from his parents, but Caspian does like the whole straight, at an exact ninety degrees aesthetic. The only messy thing in his small apartment would be Merlin's corner of his bedroom.
Then again, who likes pity to begin with? Caspian has always hated the questions that came by after his fighter had died. The always, how are you holding up, the how are you feeling, the oh you poor thing. The more people ask about it, the more he reflects on how much of a terrible sacrifice he is. Plus, it always does reopen old wounds that are slowly trying to close and heal.
One might think that because Caspian doesn't see them face to face, he'd be at ease with talking to someone over the phone. Apparently that doesn't work. Caspian tends to rehearse what he's going to say beforehand and that usually ends up to plenty of stuttered answers, no matter how professional he is trying to sound.
Caspian Sterling was the second son of _____ and _____ Sterling, born on October 28th with an older brother that was five years his senior. Damien Sterling was his older brother that doted upon him the moment he was born. So dedicated to him the older Sterling child was, that it was rare for either sibling away from each other's side. Caspian is rather happy and glad to say that his childhood was nothing extraordinary. In fact, he'd be proud to say that it was nothing but ordinary. He did not need adventures nor did he need a mountain of problems to pile on top of him. While his childhood was relatively ordinary, there were other things that came to him.
Caspian was no genius. Things did not come easy to him, especially
childhood wow great childhood
middle school jazz
high school sucks okay, lets be honest here, but eyyyy met his fighter here
college is so much better
wow i'm gay mom and dad, please don't be angry
You see, within the Sterling household, there was no such thing as second guessing and everything must be proper. There was no fifty percent, no rounding corners, no one foot out the door and the other still in. It was all or nothing, square at exactly ninety degrees, and if you go, then you better come back with your head held high and a flag that bears your name. To simply put it, the Sterling household was all or nothing, no in betweens, just right and wrong, and all black or white. Most of all, the Sterling household was for victory and glory and Caspian Sterling was the black sheep.
things happen lots of fighting but it okay
moves out of house and into apartment with his fighter
l-lol stuff happens and then
fighter dies in spell battle
wow so specific
i'm working on it
In a desperate attempt to rid himself of the pain and memories, Caspian moved as far away as he could. To some it was more like running away and if it wasn't for the fact that the federal department had cleared him of any suspicions, it might have looked as though he was running from the crime. Regardless of how it looked, Caspian moved from the west to the east coast where he became a teacher at Blackwood Academy.
While he is well aware of the research that the Academy takes part in and one of the conditions was that he participate in the research during his employment, Caspian hasn't really done much to contribute to it. Although, it's rather understandable considering his mental and emotional state still. He spends a lot of his time being normal and as mundane as possible, so there's a good chance that he'll ignore the whole fighter and sacrifice community. However, that's not to say he won't help or stop any trouble that's being caused by them. He just prefers to keep out of it as best as he could.
Caspian suffers from PTSD as well as depression from the loss of his fighter. PTSD usually comes in the form of nightmares, which he takes sleeping pills for, but the worst symptom just happens to be when he gets into a spell battle or is anywhere near one. He's already skittish as is when loud noises interrupt his usually peaceful atmosphere, but when you plop him right into a battle? There's a good chance he'll end up hyperventilating and having a panic attack once the battle does begin. Not to mention he doesn't trust himself whatsoever to be partnered with someone again.
On the bad days that he has, Caspian finds it difficult to get out of bed or do anything. Even teaching, while he knows he should get out of bed to teach his class, he doesn't have the energy or motivation to do so. Of course, that just makes him feel guilty because of how he's such a terrible english teacher and that only makes him want to stay in bed longer. That is also why his classes are held in the afternoon rather than in the morning. As counterproductive as that sounds, it's better that way since it gives time for Caspian to try and roll out of that mood.
That's where his therapy dog comes in. Merlin is a very well behaved border collie, who spends most of his time trying to get Caspian to function. If that means nudging him out of bed or snuggling in it for a while, barking at him to take breaks from his long hours of paper grading, or even to eat proper meals instead of drinking fifty gallons of tea, Merlin works magic on him. It doesn't work all of the time obviously, but it's good enough to keep Caspian functioning and well (to some degree with some disagreement). Merlin is also there to calm Caspian so that he doesn't stay in a panic attack for too long. If possible he'll lead Caspian to a secluded and quiet place, that way he'll feel safe and slowly come out of it.
Good days are fleeting. Good days means getting out of bed before noon and getting ready for class. Good days means smiling at students and teaching them what they need to know, returning graded work on time, and maybe walking Merlin around the park before going home. Those are good days and they're rather fleeting in comparison to the bad ones. While Caspian does take medication for it, he does carry the bottle with him, he often skips it because he feels ashamed or he just doesn't want to. It's the same way with eating as well. Caspian is stick thin and it wouldn't be surprising to him or Merlin if he collapsed one day because of it.
Caspian's life is ruled by the highs and low ends of depression. Highs being the good days and lows being the bad days. His moods aren't exactly the most stable of things considering how small mishaps become mountains instead of molehills It could be easily said that Caspian is overreacting, but that's just how things become for him. The good thing though, is that he'll be feeling bad about himself after his afternoon classes, sparing his students from the worst of his self pity party. Of course, that only means he's free to let himself ruminate over whatever problems and concerns that has risen from the day.
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